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Friday, August 28, 2009 @2:03 PM

have been leading an unusual self these few days. due to whatever reasons that seems to be bothering me. mixed feelings. abit of these. abit of that. i guess i'm tired, or should i say that i'm bored of my boring lifestyle. pfttt. i just hope that my life can be a lil' bit more interesting. be it just some simple events to keep me occupied with, i would be much more contented. but still, i just can't seem to explain the reasons that's leading me to having such behaviour/expectations towards u.

one of the reasons i could tink of last nite was maybe because i needed more attention, but not in a way that i have to ask for when i needed some. isn't it weird to be asking for more attention/care & concern when your someone can only be giving that much? n that i feel that giving me more attention n trying to appease me ONLY when i'm unhappy makes me feels more disappointed. am i only worth more care & concern when i'm unhappy? I guess not. the fact that when someone tries to appease his/her partner when they r unhappy is truely very right, but not when they only cared during those times instead of every single lil' day.

i tink i might have got some depression genes or rather a very emo character within me that cause me to type such a long n draggy post.

cos it's not totally related to anyone or whatsoever, just emo-ing in process.

nevertheless, attention is probably a 20% of the reasons that's leading to my unusual self right now. i can't tink of more, can u?